Earlier this year I prayed a big prayer for something I knew there was no way I could accomplish on my own–to pass my College Algebra class.
I had great faith that God would answer it and it didn’t happen. I wondered why? I wasn’t lazy about it, I gave it all I could. I studied and did homework for hours, I paid attention in class, asked questions, got a tutor! I figured if I gave it all I had God would meet me there, but it didn’t happen. Oh how I cried, and cried, I hated that I tried so hard and it didn’t materialize.
Math & science have always been tough for me, I can remember as a kid just crying during my math tests. So this semester I’m taking Cell Genetics and Biology, shoot me please. I can already tell its going to be tough, this stuff is so boring to me, and I am stressing.
So in a recent cry session to God, I realized the reason I am so stressed is because I had lost some faith in God. I’m stressing that he isn’t going to come through for me again. I felt like he had let me down before, in all of my Walk I had never felt like this before. So what I did I do? I googled bible stories to read when you feel God has disappointed you. The story of Job popped up in my results. If you aren’t familiar with it the story it basically goes that Job was this awesome Godly man and God allowed the devil to test him because he knew Job was of great faith. The devil threw a LOT at Job and I do mean a LOT, all kinds of sickness and death. But he came through it with his faith still intact and he was blessed tenfold. Now did he ever feel disappointed by God? Heck yeah he did.
If Job can keep the faith, surely I can.
“I know that you can do all things, and that no purpose of yours can be thwarted” Job 42:2 ESV
I may never understand why things happen the way that they do, but I do know God has plans for me and they will come to fruition. I have to believe that or he isn’t God to me. So I renewed my faith, knowing that disappointment will certainly come but God is still God and he still loves me.
Here’s little inspiration for you if you’re questioning God right now, keep worshiping through the sorrow. It’s hard, but trust me God will come to you at that moment and fill you with his peace. It will work out!
“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33 NIV
Here’s some worship music to get you started.