For this weeks song I’m taking you all way back to 1978, the song is La-la means I love you by the Delfonics. I love the oldies because of their simplicity and sincerity. There’s not a lot of bells and whistles just the lyrics. This particular song I first heard on the oldies station Magic 92.5 as a kid. My parents radios very rarely strayed from 92.5, so now these songs that came out long before I was born bring back so many memories. This song was one of my favorites as a kid because of the chorus, but now I love it because the lyrics are so sweet. A man is telling a woman he knows other men have tried to impress her with lines, and she hasn’t given them a shot, but he’s different from them. He actually loves her, he may not be a lot on the surface but he loves her. He’s very sincere in his declaration and I love that.
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What’s hidden between us? Nothing. There is not a detail of my soul that is unknown to you. Or a dream in my heart that hasn’t been revealed to you. You know the true meaning behind all of my expressions. All the different versions of my laughs. You know what scares me the most, and what makes me ecstatic. Even in silence we speak to each other in a million little ways. The looks and the smiles saying what words cannot.
At the suggestion of blogging 101 I have decided to start a feature on my blog. A feature is basically a reoccurring posts that are about the same topic. I pondered this for a long time. I figured my feature should be on something that I could talk about at length. Well there’s a few topics I could do that with. One would be the goodness of God, second would be music. I absolutely love music, but who doesn’t right? To be more specific I love lyrics especially the lyrics of love songs. I’m a romantic, can’t help it. Also I’m a writer so I love words. Most of the time if a song is a favorite of mine it’s because the lyrics spoke to me in some way. Either I’ve experienced what the lyrics are saying or it’s just so beautifully expressed that I want to experience it. Hence the love song of the week. I promise I won’t post anything too cheesy, I like raw emotion, love isn’t always pretty. I want to hear about everything from the break up to the make up and all that’s in between.
My first song is probably my favorite song ever. It’s called “Crystal” by Stevie Nicks. I love Stevie, I love her whole hippie vibe and of course her unique voice. I don’t believe there’s anyone who sounds quite like her. I first heard this song about 17 years ago on the soundtrack of the Sandra Bullock movie “Practical Magic.” Good chick flick if you haven’t seen it. I rediscovered the song some years later and I just fell in love with it. The lyrics described a situation I want to be in someday, which is finding love. The song uses a metaphor of water to describe how love has found her at last. She sings next of how she just “knew” that this love was the real thing. This song isn’t well known so it’s almost like she wrote it just for me. So here’s the video for this song. Let Stevie’s voice take you away.
This past Christmas I was given a gift by a dear friend. It was a book called “642 things to write about” by the San Francisco Writers Group. And just like the title says there is 642 writing prompts inside. I highly recommend it to the writers out there. A lot of the prompts are very thought provoking. I thought I’d share my response to one of them.
“How do you feel about love these days?”
I assume that the prompt is referring to romantic love. Truthfully my attitude on romantic love is a little somber. Love to me is like a palm tree in a vast desert. And I’m a weary traveler whose been walking the desert for many miles. I see the palm tree in a distance and I think to myself “There’s a chance that the palm tree could actually be real and not a mirage.” But I’m afraid to run towards it for fear that it is just a mirage. In other words I know that love is real a thing but it seems so far off that I wonder if it will ever be a reality for me. My rational brain knows God put this desire in me to be in love and to get married and He always delivers on his promises. But sometimes my irrational heart thinks otherwise. Sometimes I say to myself “I’m not ready to be married right now so why does it matter? I’m still young, I have plenty of baby bearing years ahead of me.” Yes that’s true but then why do I think about it almost everyday? Perhaps it’s because I have never really been in love. Yes I’ve uttered those 3 words to someone but I did not mean them. I’ve trusted and deeply cared for but never truly loved. It’s everywhere you look, in the movies and on the radio, somebody is either falling in or out of love. I can’t help but be curious about this powerful thing that has such an affect on life.
So how do I feel about love these days? Conflicted, because my head says “Be patient it, will happen”. But my heart says “Hurry up and find me someone to love.”
Break ups, we’ve all been there right. They’re not pleasant but sometimes they end up serving another purpose. Most times (at least for me) it’s in pain that we are inspired to create. Some paint, some create music, I write. Whether you’d call it poetry or prose, everything in my heart becomes words. So I don’t regret that relationship, it served it’s purpose. So here it is the poem inspired by the first boy who ever broke my heart, I call it “The End.”
I have shed many tears for you in the lonely moments of the night. I have writhed, sobbed, and bled for you with only God as my audience.
I declare today the end of my struggle. I declare today the end of my pain.
Not one more tear will me leave me if you are behind it. Not one more sleepless night if you are the cause.
My heart is cold to your plight. My body is cold to your touch.
Goodbye to the one who only took from me. Goodbye to the one who never truly cared.
It’s not life. If I have no faith or hope for the future, then I might as well find a nice dark corner in which to keel over and die. What is the point of living if there is no hope for the future? I know life can pull you down in the mud and it feels as if you’re sinking deeper and deeper. But even in the bleakest of moments God is still working on your behalf. I have had times in my life that were pretty gray. I was in pain in my physical body as well as my soul. I could hardly gather the strength to walk. I needed God to move in my life desperately, I cried to Him nearly every night. The only thing that kept me going was my faith that God was going to deliver me. And that this extremely difficult time was for a purpose. I knew God was building me to be a stronger and more faithful person. I had to keep believing that or let the world bring me to my knees. That doesn’t mean that I just sat back and waited for things to change. I made a conscious effort to change my circumstances. And after I did all that I could do in my human power, I let God take care of the rest in His supernatural power. I admit there were moments where I wasn’t 100% positive that God would see me through it. But I remember His word, Psalm 38:2 The Lord says, “I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you.” God wants us have the best possible lives. Lives full of purpose and promise, not full of depression and bitterness. Jesus did not die on a cross so we could just muddle through life while slowly dying on the inside. Why not put your faith in Him? What is the alternative? The only other option is waiting for death.